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RelapseIt’s like counting
Saturn’s rings,
hash marks
along your limbs -
remembering a time
when

‘just one more’

made you feel better.

- & you’re sitting there
wondering why
Draco, stuck in limbo
always looks like he’s

falling.

Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?
I cry. Does that make me emo?
I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?
I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?
I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?
I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?
I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?
I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.
Does that make me different?
Maybe.
But at least it makes me
Me.

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

Battle in my MindEat.
Don't eat.
Take it easy.
Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
You're perfect.
You're worthless.
You're beautiful.
You're disgusting.
Why won't you listen?
They don't understand.
Let me help you.
You don't understand.
Show me.
No!
I love you..

WorthlessWorthless,
the name that cuts like a knife,
Me,
it's all that you see inside,
My heart,
is breaking with every breath I take
The lies,
the only thing I can't seem to face.

In The Daylight

In The Daylight

A false downfall
An unexpected revival

Sunset to moonset
Shining through darkness

Life...redefined
Death...redesigned

In the valley of promises- I will fear no end
On the brink of weakness- I will ascend
-
Roads of the toughest
Paths of the darkest

I conditioned my flawed limits
So fearful memories won't be paralytic

I had to raise my own spirit
Strength and endurance become so vivid

A chance for change / A moment of fate
A time to make peace / A brief feeling of creed
A sealing of my slate / A silencing of my mistakes
A secret ready to be freed / A chain soon-to-be incomplete

Pain and peace are infinite
Judge the wrat

wallflower clippingsthere's scar tissue in her throat,
swollen around the words she never said;
dark rings around her eyes
like planets unremembered, and
a staleness to her touch,
the crystalline Dead Sea.

she's living like a story
that's already been told
"if no one loved you
would you mean anything at all?"

in that moment,
we forget to exist.

Ode to the boy with diamonds for eyesI think we were a collision course waiting to happen
And when I think back to the day when we first
Stumbled across one another, red sneakers hanging off gutters
Cherry cola voice overs and dilated pupils
We led one another on to believe in the night sky of connect the dot constellations

You wanted to dissect me and peer into the insides of my lungs
Only to find witches breath and dandelions
Slicing iron vowels you locked your hands in mine
And we fell into the static of dreaming disease
The operating table broke away to reveal a sky that never existed
And we couldn't help but laugh at the irony
Because wishing was never an option
The ane

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

Our MasksThe masks we wear are perfect
Never loose and rarely tight
They keep us safe from others
And keep our demons out of sight

They smile when we are broken
And laugh when we simply must
No blemish or imperfection
A creation that will never rust.

I seldom ever remember
Who I am without my mask
That to peel off that layer
Is such a daunting task

All others carry one as well
Wherever they may go
And no matter what is on their minds
Only the molded mask will show.

The lies they preach in public
Or the scars along their wrists
Are left mute to others knowledge
Ignorance is such a splendid gift

My mask is oh so perfect
Not a crack will show
Alway

Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.

LonelyLonely.
Unnoticed.
People don't even look
when they walk by.
Always ignored...
Nobody even asks my ideas,
my opinion.
Nobody even knows
who I am.
When people see me,
they either ignore me,
or ask a question:
"Who are you?"
But they don't even bother
to listen to my response:
"I'm Canada."
Forgotton.
Forgotton by everyone.
Forgotton by my friends, my allies.
Maybe one day
Someone will remember my name.
Canada.

Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop

Honesty Written

from the

heart.

No eraser.

Lost In ConfusionLost In Confusion

My mind is spinning without a rest
Emotions whirl and twirl around
A merry-go-round gaining speed
Until the world blurrs before my eyes
What's happening? What's going on?

The simplest thought slips away
Right from my mind, fading so fast
Trying to focus, I stare and stare
Until my eyes are heavy and unclear.
I don't understand, what is going on..

Emotions rise and fall again
Within the blink of an eye
I'm crying, laughing, and depressed
A roller-coaster ride that never ends
Am I losing my mind in this?

I try to close my eyes and rest
But the world spins me around
I feel like I am failing this test
Voices and noises echo

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Just GoLeave me now, please just go.
Too much time has been wasted.
The alarm has gone off, and
I see that we must leave.

Go now and leave me,
So the guards may never
Find you and harm you.
Hold me for but a moment,
But please make it soft and quick.
I shall wait for your return,
With arms open only for you.
Many trials and hardships wait,
But our hearts shall only grow strong
And our hearts may never turn against another.

Leave me now, please just go.
Leave before I beg you to stay.

Star Up In The SkyThere are so many stars in the sky.

Do you ever feel small when you look up at them?

Do you ever wonder what those stars can hold?

Could it be possible that those stars could be other worlds?

One star always holds my gaze.

The first star that I ever dare take a glance to is there.

Some may think it is Venus.

But that is not the star that holds my gaze.

What is that star?

What is that star hanging high in the sky?

Such a lovely, small, insignificant, cherishable star.

I have often shaken my head to forget.

I have often tried to stay indoors to ignore.

But I can never forget.

Even indoors, that small star brightens my room.

What Hearts DesireWhat is our meaning to live?

What is our reason to live?

What are we all searching so long and hard for?

As our hearts yearn and cry out, we do not know why.

Why?

Why?

What is the meaning to this unknown cry and desire?

Why do we keep running from unknown fears?

Even when one knows that it could be the very healer, why do they still run?

Is there any reason at all?

Or is man naturally a cowardly lion?

Does anyone dare to prove it wrong?

Does anyone dare to stand and grasp?

Show your true strength.

Show your dreams.

Show your outstretched wings.

Flame of Swords Raise the blade.

Call the soldiers.

Ready the flags.

Sound the horns.

Now is the time for war and honor.

Now is the call for growth and strength.

Fight onward and strong.

Protect your loved ones.

Stand firm your beliefs.

Ready your hearts for all.

Haiku and TankaTake Flight (Haiku)

Fly high little bird.
Take care to soar with the clouds.
Don't forget Sparrow.

Fight for love (Tanka)

Love is all we have.
Protect it with your whole heart.
Pick up your quill now.
Love is a battleground here.
We must fight to protect love.
Protect your heart's chosen one.

Two HeartsFeathers fall to the ground in a soft heap.

The oak tree stands tall in the bright sunlight.

His sword clashes with his already fallen fighting dummy.

She gazes on in admiration of her hero.

He smiles bashfully; Ironic compared to his steel eyes and cold determination.

Grabbing a lunch box and a bottle of water, they stroll to their favorite park and rest.

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by ~khgirl153, Jul 3, 2012, 1:37:38 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Why?
Why couldn't I have been born different?
In a different time and place?
It would have been easier there than here.

God made you like this for a reason.
He put you in this place for a reason.
God doesn't make mistakes.
Stop whining already.

How can I not lament?!
I know God has His reasons.
But my selfish heart screams:
Why is my heart there without me?!

God does not keep the longing heart longing!
He has promised that many times!
He has a plan.
Just keep moving forward.

Easy to say for an idealist!
Easy for someone who's used to the flow!
This waiting game is suffocating!
Can't you see our pain!

Of course I can see it.
But who are you to demand?
Who are you to scream?
Others are hurting too.

They have lamented too.
Sometimes their birth, sometimes the outside.
They have dreamed what I dreamed.
They astounded everyone...only to fall short.

You will have a chance.
Don't be rash or upset.
The time will come.
Just be still and know.

I tire of this waiting.
But it appears I have no choice.
The cage strangles the more I struggle.
I have no choice but to wait.

We'll get out of this cage.
Ease your fears.
Just rest and learn.
We'll make it.

Together.

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~dangel98 Jul 3, 2012

The only word I can utter after reading this is Wow

~khgirl153 Jul 3, 2012

Thank you. ^/////^

~dangel98 Jul 3, 2012

You are very welcome

*nightshade-keyblade Jul 3, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I can relate a lot to this poem. Sometimes you just have to let out all your rage and sadness like that, if things aren't going so well in your life. Otherwise, it just builds up until you're beyond repair.

By the way, when you said "They astounded...but fall short", I'm confused by your word choice. Don't you mean "aspired"?

~khgirl153 Jul 3, 2012

No. I meant "astounded". Basically they do something wonderful and everyone knows it and believe they will be one of the greatest. But because of one tiny flaw, that person could not go above and beyond.

*nightshade-keyblade Jul 3, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Oh, OK.

Could I suggest something?

~khgirl153 Jul 3, 2012

By all means, please.

*nightshade-keyblade Jul 3, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

For that particular line, I would personally write it this way:

"They astounded everyone...only to fall short"

It makes a bit more sense to me that way.

~khgirl153 Jul 3, 2012

Ah. Thanks a lot.

*nightshade-keyblade Jul 4, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

My pleasure. I'm happy to help ^_^

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